Today’s post is all about the inevitable traits we take on as children of alcoholics and addicts. These are some of the most common traits among adult children of alcoholics, which is also known as the ‘Laundry List.’ I will make a dedicated post to many of these traits more in depth, and share my experience with each of them. Please let me know your thoughts and if you relate to any of them.
- We became isolated and afraid of people and authority figures.
- We became approval seekers and lost our identity in the process.
- We are frightened by angry people and any personal criticism.
- We either become alcoholics, marry them or both, or find another compulsive personality such as a workaholic to fulfill our sick abandonment needs.
- We live life from the viewpoint of victims and we are attracted by that weakness in our love and friendship relationships.
- We have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility and it is easier for us to be concerned with others than ourselves; this enables us not to look too closely at our own faults.
- We get guilt feelings when we stand up for ourselves instead of giving in to others.
- We became addicted to excitement.
- We confuse love and pity and tend to “love” people we can “pity” and “rescue.”
- We have “stuffed” our feelings from our traumatic childhoods and have lost the ability to feel or express our feelings because it hurts so much (Denial).
- We judge ourselves harshly and have a very low sense of self-esteem.
- We are dependent personalities who are terrified of abandonment and will do anything to hold on to a relationship in order not to experience painful abandonment feelings, which we received from living with sick people who were never there emotionally for us.
- Alcoholism is a family disease; and we became para-alcoholics and took on the characteristics of that disease even though we did not pick up the drink.
- Para-alcoholics are reactors rather than actors.
So, this laundry list is from the Adult Children of Alcoholics World Service Organization, which is part of a 12 step program that to me seems very similar to programs such as Alcoholics Anonymous. While I agree with this list I just want it to be known that I do not follow this program. While I’m sure it’s very beneficial, it was just not something I got into much on my healing journey. I relied on other resources that are on my Resource Page and personally I have not liked the vibe of the 12 step program, it is just not something that has appealed to me personally. If it has helped you I would love to hear so, but one of the reasons for this blog is because I wanted to find different resources.
Another list I am going to refer to is from a great book, “Adult Children of Alcoholics” by Janet Geringer Woititz, who has done so much work in the field and the book is great. This list is more of generalizations she has found through her work and I personally resonate with all of them, so I hope you find this list helpful also.
- Adult children of alcoholics guess at what normal behavior is.
- They have difficulty following a project through from beginning to end.
- They lie when it would be just as easy to tell the truth.
- They judge themselves without mercy.
- They have difficulty having fun.
- They take themselves very seriously.
- They have difficulty with intimate relationships.
- They over-react to changes over which they have no control.
- They constantly seek approval and affirmation.
- They feel that they are different from other people.
- They are either super responsible or super irresponsible.
- They are extremely loyal, even when that loyalty is undeserved.
- They are impulsive. The impulsivity leads to loss of control and spend energy cleaning up the mess.
I hope these lists help you understand yourself a little more, and maybe you will be able to reflect on some of them and gain some clarity on why you may behave the way you do. I’m looking forward to going more in depth to these topics and others to help you (and myself) on this journey. Thanks for being here.
Bloom